Mixed Emotions by Jamie Nelson
I feel so diffident in your presence,
Your confident playfulness drips all over me
You played with me like a little boy
Would play . . . You have spiraled my emotions
I sit here speechless . . . First you smelled my hair.
I looked at your little soft body
Your innocence concealed by others
But blaring loud in my ears as the
80's music further enticed my need for
summer love
Your weariness shows in your dark
Puppy eyes . . . your life, your experience
your hurt, carefully put away. I reach out to you
To embrace you, to let you know I care
More than anyone ever could. I touch your
soft skin. Our bodies fit perfectly as we embrace
Like two perfectly crafted puzzle pieces.
If only I could kiss you passionately,
Without hesitation. Without any of the thoughts
of entangled relationships.
Our hearts both contain so much complexity
Our pasts sickly warped . . .
But the noise of the silent summer
Molds our problems into one shared love. It seems that to you it
is all so superficial, and it saddens me to
know I love you from the deepest hole in my
Heart. You are beautiful, innocent, my little
Boy. We long to play, frolic, and never grow up.
Yet we are drawn together by our soft lips craving for
fulfillment. Longing to be held and loved . . . But do you
Really feel more, do you hold that capacity to love
As deeply as I do? . . . No you are just a little boy, but I am
Just as innocent, so maybe you do love me
As I love you. Your summer love. I crave your
Innocence. Your pillow lips still linger on my neck
You have made me feel so giggly and bubbly inside
Perhaps I don't have to grow up. Perhaps this hope
That you have given me can last a few months, or until
we see each other once again. I feel so happy, so passionate,
so optimistic. How could you do that to me? What
An incredible aura you give off. But perhaps I interpret your
Flirtatious gestures as more than they are. But you kept me to
yourself. You took authority and told the swarming boys
around me to leave me alone . . . For I belonged to you
That's what you said. Your little hand dangled in the air,
waiting for me to come to your side. Yes, you indicated
your need for me, but there is that chance that you
wish for something in the shallow waters. But whatever my contortions
of your feelings may be, you've allowed me to dream of love once again.
But the fear of hurt lies in the background, as I know
You aren't strong, confusion lurks in your soft eyes.
Despite your problems, I love you and you have made
me feel truly overwhelmed. Truly happy. Truly full of
Wholeness and love. Let's snuggle. Smile with me
Tickle me and make me
Giggle!
Your confident playfulness drips all over me
You played with me like a little boy
Would play . . . You have spiraled my emotions
I sit here speechless . . . First you smelled my hair.
I looked at your little soft body
Your innocence concealed by others
But blaring loud in my ears as the
80's music further enticed my need for
summer love
Your weariness shows in your dark
Puppy eyes . . . your life, your experience
your hurt, carefully put away. I reach out to you
To embrace you, to let you know I care
More than anyone ever could. I touch your
soft skin. Our bodies fit perfectly as we embrace
Like two perfectly crafted puzzle pieces.
If only I could kiss you passionately,
Without hesitation. Without any of the thoughts
of entangled relationships.
Our hearts both contain so much complexity
Our pasts sickly warped . . .
But the noise of the silent summer
Molds our problems into one shared love. It seems that to you it
is all so superficial, and it saddens me to
know I love you from the deepest hole in my
Heart. You are beautiful, innocent, my little
Boy. We long to play, frolic, and never grow up.
Yet we are drawn together by our soft lips craving for
fulfillment. Longing to be held and loved . . . But do you
Really feel more, do you hold that capacity to love
As deeply as I do? . . . No you are just a little boy, but I am
Just as innocent, so maybe you do love me
As I love you. Your summer love. I crave your
Innocence. Your pillow lips still linger on my neck
You have made me feel so giggly and bubbly inside
Perhaps I don't have to grow up. Perhaps this hope
That you have given me can last a few months, or until
we see each other once again. I feel so happy, so passionate,
so optimistic. How could you do that to me? What
An incredible aura you give off. But perhaps I interpret your
Flirtatious gestures as more than they are. But you kept me to
yourself. You took authority and told the swarming boys
around me to leave me alone . . . For I belonged to you
That's what you said. Your little hand dangled in the air,
waiting for me to come to your side. Yes, you indicated
your need for me, but there is that chance that you
wish for something in the shallow waters. But whatever my contortions
of your feelings may be, you've allowed me to dream of love once again.
But the fear of hurt lies in the background, as I know
You aren't strong, confusion lurks in your soft eyes.
Despite your problems, I love you and you have made
me feel truly overwhelmed. Truly happy. Truly full of
Wholeness and love. Let's snuggle. Smile with me
Tickle me and make me
Giggle!
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This poem is about the interaction between two people, drawn to each other by some type of attraction. There is flirting, but the girl wonders if it is only superficial, or if there are truly deep feelings behind his flirting. She thinks about him constantly, but is saddened by the thought that perhaps he isn't driven with the same deep love that she is.
Maybe he is too young to understand or to feel as deeply as she does. She thinks about every little thing he has done to her, but realizes that he might not even think twice about them. Her spirits lift as she dwells on all the beauty he has given her, and accepts whatever he is offering, shallow or deep.
Maybe he is too young to understand or to feel as deeply as she does. She thinks about every little thing he has done to her, but realizes that he might not even think twice about them. Her spirits lift as she dwells on all the beauty he has given her, and accepts whatever he is offering, shallow or deep.
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i loved you poem its really good - tiffany |
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this is so beautiful. u really to me a to a place where i was longin to go thank u - Maleeka |
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It touched me becouse I feel that way for some one! - Lucy |
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i loved the poem because i feel the way the poem is saying. i like this guy but he keeps playing games with my head and i just don't know well newayz i love the poem it is beautiful! - TIna |
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I think it was a great peom. - kiran |
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This poem is soooo good. I know exactly what you mean. it's WONDERFUL! keep up your good work :) - Hannah |
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what an lovely poem! the title caught my eye as i was scanning! and i read it! and i almost cried! such a lovely poem! very stronge! - shanika |
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Great poem. I too have felt this way when I met my wife. Thanks for reminding me of what it is like to be so innocent. - jeromie |
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I really loved this poem and I can relate to it as well. Well keep up the good work. - Mayra |
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this poem was amazing! it made me cry! and i laughed~ at the same time~@$#@#% AAAMAAZZIIINNG i love your poem. though it was painfully long and i am only 12 so i dont know what enticed meant, and i was really mad when i had to look it up on dictionary. com! BUUUTTT i still love it! - jessanna |
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This is exactly how i feel for this guy. I loved your poem. - Lalaine |
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WOW this poem really touched me,you are truly a great poet, Keep it up. I currently have a boyfriend who is like the person in the poem, seems to think he's too young for love, but this poem helped me to realise that just because he doesn't want to get serious doesn't mean we can't enjoy our time together. - Lisa |
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i fell the same wy about someone its so hard to deal with - brittany |
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your poem relates so much to me i think your poem is the best i hva ever read please reply and send more poems you have written bravo bravo! - sasha |
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this was a kick but poem it really was touching and i liked it alot - britany |
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I vote best poem of the year! - James |
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i know how you feel i used to like this boy we both flirt alot but i found out that he doesn't feel that way about me - Autumn |
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This poem is great. I should send my poems on here. - Jessica |
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I think it's great because I'm going threw the same thing. - Shaneece |
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This was a verry nice poem, there is this girl at my school who im experiencing this with. - Brandon |
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I vote this poem a 10. I really like it. - Desiree' |
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i really like this poem. i think it shows your inner emotions for this particular person. if this has happened to you keep your head and think positive. you may have another chance with this person. poetry seems to be your way out of things. that's okay though. i really love to write poetry. i'm just a little shy about my poetry. i wanted to sign up with this web site but i don't know how to actually. well, keep doing what you are doing it might have a more positive outcome. - shanita |
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I love your poem! It's very realistic and You are an awesome poetry writer. - Jessica |
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it totally reminded me of my boyfriend and i - ky |
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omg thats like totally how i feel about my brothers friend lol that sounds kinda weird cuz hes my brothers friend but that poem is awesome n its exactly how i feel - melon-e |
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I would rate this a 10. Thats how I feel with my boyfriend. You are a good poet. I am a poet as well but not as good. Keep up the good work that was really great! - iris |
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This is a nice and passionate poem i give it the rating of 10 - Jocelyn |
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i loved this poem it describes the way i feel about this guy that lives far away but we talk every night i talk to his mom and his sister even when he's not around. i love him so much he says he loves me too but sometimes i don't know. - brittney |
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this poem is so great. i can really realte to i with the guy i like. god bless you for this awesome talent you have of writing! - jessica |
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this poem is so good. i could really realte to it and it was very, very well written. - jessica |
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i loved the fact that you wrote it for teenage years. it's a very emotional poem. my friend said she read it to her boyfriend & he proposed to her the next day. it's a very romantic poem & i say you will win. - Kirstie |
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this peom iz ace i feel like that to my boyfriend i love im soooooooooooooo much! please write more poems like this it is so gud - alison |
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This poem really portrays my own personal feelings about age and love. Even though the contents are simply and easy to understand, it gives the reader that's been through the same thing a strong relation. Amazing work~ - Yin Yin |
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That poem really touch me cause in your poem you capture how i felt about my ex- boyfriend and still feel. - Shantee' |
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it was wounderful the way you feel is the way i feel about this boy in my life - katrina |
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I am 14 going on 15 and this poem took something from inside me and told me to keep going. I am in love. And O what a wonderful feeling. But latey things have been a bit shakey he told me it was over. I saw him a couple weeks later and he looked at me and told me he had made a mistake and that i was his everything. I plan on sharing my life with this guy and every word of this poem made me realize that this WILL be forever. Thank you very much for your inspiriation. Sincerly yours, Laura - laura |
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your poem ROCKED!Thanks i loved it! - Sissi |
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This was a very sad and touching poem. My cingrats to the author! - megan |
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that was awesome i am a writer as well thank you for your precious time i am sure you need to write an excellent poem so i will leave you to your great art of the word. good luck - Appleasia |
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i loved this poem it really touched me and helped me explain my feelings to my boyfriend. and it made me cry. i love it - Kendra |
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i almost started to cry. very tuching. thank you - kym |
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I really enjoyed that writing. It was deep and reminded me of my relationship with my Eric. There's so many emotions in relationships. You captured them really well. - Ashley |
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Yeah i would just like to say that that poem really touched me and it relates to how i feel about a boy i know so i just wanted to say that and this poem is real good! - Robin |
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wow, your poem is extremely deep. the first one that I have come across that actually made me "feel", your poetry is heart-felt and mature. - Christy |
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I loved this poem. Probably because I am in the same situation currently and I am amazed at how well that was worded. - Jari |
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This poem is sooo good, and I think it explaines a lot of emotions that people feel, and can give to someone if they don't know exactly what to say! I enjoyed it, and I'm glad you wrote it! Jenni - Jenni |
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i get the little boy thing and i understand poetry what was that about but it was cute - nessa |
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This poem was great. i really liked it. i love poetry. - Devin |
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hey i thought taht mixed emotions was a great poem and i could really relate to it being a teenager myself keep up the good work! - sam |
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i liked your poem it reminds me of myself but i know it must be hard but trust me you dont need a man like that there is more fish in the ocean - tabbatha |
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I thought that this was an awesome poem. I can relate very closely to the situation, because that is how I feel right now with this guy at my school - Megan |
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I thought that this poem was good because for the longest time I thought that the guy I loved didn't love me back but I found out later on that he does love me and we are getting married when I get out of High School. - Cheyenne |
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All i can say was the i was reluctant to read this because it seemed all to real to me. I loved it, it explained so many things i could never put into words, i've written poems that explained how i felt but in a different relm kind of genre and this definitly explained it directly. - Rochelle |
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This is Exactly how I feel about this boy at my skool. I was a great poem! - Brittney |
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i loved the poem! i can realate with it soo much! i admire you for being able to write your feelings down like that and so beautifully! Keep up the awesome work! - Lindsay |
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I love this poem! It's exactly how I feel right now! - Lucy |
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it is a beautifull poem and it reminds me of what am going thrue. - massiel |
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that's so sweet. i miss those days. unfortunately they don't last forever. enjoy them while you can dear. the memories will last forever, though the pain will not - stephanie |
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Hey there everyone, I did like this poem quite a bit. - Megan |
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i really liked it because i have felt that way before and that i am a pomeit my self and your expressing was really good. - tabatha |
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I thought it was really sweet. I feel the same toward my boyfriend! keep up the good work. - Mindy |
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I think this poem is absolutely excellent. It reminds me of me and my boyfriend. I really would like to use your poem for my poetry anthology. - Leah |
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I thought the poem was very touching, and I just loved it. I just wrote a poem about Mixed Emtions and it was kind of similar to this poem. But I really thought it was good. - LeDawn |
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I Love your poem it reminds me of my first love who i try very much to keep in my life email me if you have any more like this or just to talk about it - ashley |
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I really enjoyed reading this poem. It relates to my boyfriend and I because we faced many challenges before we got together, age being a factor. But he's great and he definetly makes me smile. Thanks - Jennifer |
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Jamie, I really like the internal struggle that you convey through your poem. Even though most of us have had the same doubts, you remind the reader about the beauty of being able to love somebody, regardless of the fear that goes a long with it. - susana |
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Wow this is really great. I know its been a few years since this was posted, but I am going through the exact same thing right now. Wow. - Jessica |
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i love 'em - brittany |
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I think your poem is so great because I could really relate to it. - monica |
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This poem is amazing. you're an awesome writer. This explains how I pretty much feel. I like to express myself a lot in writing. Soemtimes poetry works for me. I write in a notebook with my teacher and we respond to each other. I always tell her what I'm thinking and she always helps me if I need it. Once in awhile talking works for me but mostly it's writing. It looks loike writing is your thing too. Keep it up. you have something good going! - Ashley Bianca |
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i love that poem i can realy see it happening. Well really it is happining to me right now. i love how you just can put what i fell and think into a poem that will touch many peoples hearts. - Steph |
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This poem is really good. You are a great writter, you should keep on diong it. It shoes alot of emotion and alot of feelings. - AnaMarie |
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This poem is by far a masterpiece it is perfect and i can relate to it completely because i am in a situation like this right now. You are a true artist! PLEASE continue to produce more beauty for a world full of lonliness. - Melissa |
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It is the most beutiful poem i have ever read you have have a very good tellent i hope u can write more - David |
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i love ur poem. and its so weird how the girl in the poem is going throught the exact thing i am. its like u took my thoughts and wrote them down. you have a great writing talent. - Layna |
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wow I say I cryed on this one I felt the emotions that this poem had I am having problems with relationships and it hurts so bad but I really like this poem - kate |
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wow this poem decribes exactly what i feel about this guy that im so in like with. when we're together its like we have so much chemistry. but when we're apart, i feel like i have alot of doubts. i have no clue what he's thinking except that he wants to kiss me everytime he see's me,well thanx for your poem, it made me feel like their are people out there who go through the same things as me,even though sometimes we dont believe it, thanx alot. - cece |
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it was a really sweet poem. it expressed alot of emotions! - jenn |
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You are a very talented writer. keep it up. I can relate to that poem very much. Iam going thru it right now. It's horrible. But don't stop writting you have a very strong talent for writing! - Erin |
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Well, this poem is a true inspiration to me. mainly because i can relate and i find it interesting that someone that i dont even know can write the story of my relationship and my feelings. thankyou jamie nelson for writing this poem and i will be posting copys up for grabs at my store! - toni |
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Oh my God. That is a great poem. I can really relate to it. Its exactly like me and this boy named Naoh. I love him but the question is, does he love me? But i absolutely love your poem. I love to write poetry and I am having a poem of mine published and I'm only 13. Keep up the good work. i know you can go some where with your poems cause they're great! - Kayla |
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This poem completely described everything I am going through right now. I fell in love with someone three years younger than myself and, even though I still care for him, it doesn't seem he's ready for anything so big. Thank you. It really hit home. - Angel |
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Many nights I've asked if my pouring of love is matched. The forest of emotions of uncertainty is hard to untangle. thank you for a poem that speaks about living for living and enjoying the moment. - Wu |
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This poem was so true. It was exactly what happened to me about 5 days ago. Everything, to the last detail was the same as what happened to me. This poem is great in letting teens know they're not alone. - Anony |
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WOW, I dont know what to say. You are very gifted. You could like feel what the girl felt. Keep writing! - Aimee |
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Wow, you are a really good writer. I can relate to it very much and I am giving a copy to my boyfriend. Keep on writing, you do a great job. - Kristen |
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I loved the poem.mainly because it reminds me so much of myself.rigth now I'm sorta in between 2 relationships.what I mean is that I'm talking to two different people, one from my school and one from a different school. I just wanted to let you know that you are a very talented woman. - Nichole |
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this poem was so good! ive been looking for a poem that i can really relate to and that says everything i feel and this is it! thanx for helping me find it! - emma |
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You are a very talented person. This poem was full of so much emotion and love. I also write poems and i would have to say that you really have a gift of putting your fealings into words and sharing your thoughts with others so that maybe they will know that they are not alone. I give this peom a 10! - Heather |
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i can completely relate, all except for the summertime thing. mine was a fall experience. but i fell for a "little boy" with "shallow emotions" who didn't understand the depth of what i was offering him. and in the end - raye |
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Wow! this poem is to much for anyone to imagine that haven't experienced this type of feeling so much feeling power. I love it ! keep on loving - LaToria |
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its "real" - misty |
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Amazing poem! It describes exactly what i'm feeling in my current relationship! It touched me like no other poem has! Keep up the good work:) - Kelly |
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this is exactly the situation i was in a week ago before my bf, two years younger than me. and not ready for the depth and passion of a relationship, broke up with me. this is the PERFECT poem - raye |
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The poems is great! It says all that I felt when I was in that situation. I like it! - Queenie |
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I like this poem alot.it fits me in so many ways.that it is unreal. to who ever wrote this poem.you made me think about alot of things. thank you so much! - Stephanie |
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I like this poem my friend that I really like says he feels this way about me, he says he loves me but he is nervous, he says I am so special to him, he does not want to hurt me - Abby |
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I think this is so true. I have feelings for a guy who is younger then me and it is so hard to tell if he really likes me or if he just likes to flirt. - Kari |
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it is a really beautiful poem, i didn't believe a teenager could writing something so sincere and wonderful - erin |
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I really do love this peom it answered alot of questions that I had. So thanks for writing this to help other people with struggles. May God bless you with all he has because I do apprechiate this. THANK YOU! - Noelle |
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Great poem...i loved it...it made me remember my ex..and it made me sad and happy at the same time - Jessica |
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I loved this poem. It perfectly explained my feelings about the guy i was with this summer. I feel like I could have written it myself. Well done. - Kathy |
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if you change all the parts that say boy to girl, this poem is about me. - McFatty |
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I love this poem it was written very good. It said everything I couldnt explain for myself. - veronica |
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Very Very Good! I LOVED it! It expresses what i am feeling now.. thanks.. i think i am going to have to show this one to MY summer love - JoseY |
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I loved it! I know this is how felt before i found my love thanks. You are truly talented - Kitten |
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geez..you are a fantastic writer, how could you even think of that? it made me cry to think of love.WOW, really, ima speechless. - kat |
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i was cought by your words. that was an increable poem. i am a writer to and i can honestly respect your ability to write so good - lil |
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I think this poem is beautiful. It really gets right to the point. I also think it is one of the best teen poems I have ever read. I give it a 10. - chadene |
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it i s sweetpoem that i couldn't dill with - alicia |
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jamie this poem was awesome,it reminds me of all my mixed emotions your a true writter - shelly |
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I LOVED THIS POEM IT EXPRESSES SO DEEPLY EVERYTHING THAT I FEEL I RESEMBLES ME SO MUCH WE - Jennifer |
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It's a realy cute poem I loved it. - Jackie |
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I truely admire this piece of poem. It show a great writter of style and enegy. The writter forcus on the matter of the subject from begining to end. Indeed this it is a wonderful poem. Job well done! - Eunice |
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i need to thank you - for giving me a way to express the way I feel towards my bloke - its just fantastic - im amazed - Leila |
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really good i have the same thing happen to me with a guy but now were just friends - krazy |
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Oh my gosh! If I could write like that - Angel |
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Mixed emotions is a truly remarkable poem, that is touching and emotional in every way. I think it is a poem that could help many other teens deal with or at least know that they are not the only one who has or is having mixed emotions. I think it is a poem that people of all ages can relate to at one time or another. A splendid masterpiece! - Clara_Ann |
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this poem reminds me of my ex-boyfriend. he has me feeling mixed emotions. but i know that he is the one for me we fit like "puzzle peices" i love him, he loves me. but we aren't together, how confusing is that. good poem. thanx. - angel |
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This poem really did touch me. It showed exactly what emotions I am going through. I hope you keep up with your excellent writing of poetry. Your words can really touch a person's life, I know it did mines. - Candace |
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Its the real thing. It really happens. - JJ |
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It an inspiring poem and made almost me cry - Kathy |
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this is a great poem. i'm almost sure everyone can relate! - summer |
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i love your poem . it seems so true inside on how i feel and people around me. its reality - Happi |
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this is the best teen poem i have ever read. it tells the truth about our feelings. - brenda |
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sweet =) - Kimmy |
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I loved this poem alot! Im in the same sort of situation with my boyfriend. And when i read this poem it totally described the feelings i was feeling and it made me alittle cheeryer to tell you the truth. but i liked this poem the best out of all i have read so far tonight. If i were to rate this poem from 1 to 10 i would have to give it a 20!!! (by the waqy i am 15.) - jessica |
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i really like your poem because it reminds me of my boyfriend that i really love but i'm not sure if he loves me too but you really did a good job on that i wish i could write a pome like that. - michelle |
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Only one word : fantastic - Carmen |
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i like the poem it was full of emotions and i like that. - rayman |
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This is one oof the best poems i've ever read. This thing is happening to me right know so it hits close to home. - Mark |
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I think this is a wonderful poem. It has so much inner meaning. - Lisa |
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Your poem is so true and loving but you still manage to make me laugh and cry at the same time it takes a great poet to write that kind of poem - Ben |
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Gosh.what a beatiful poem. I been feeling something similar to this. And I haven't still figured out the answer yet. But i am glad to know that someone else is feeling the same way. Great job. - kim |
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I really loved this poem it is so sweet and I feel the same way about my friend Brent. - Tammy |
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I think the poem is fantastic, eventhough i can't really recall my self in a position like that. this poem touched my heart it mase me felt that love is out there and if a person can write the effects of mixed emotions and it sounded so wonderful then i am sure love exists and it is out there some where. i used to think love was only a fantasy but now i know it is out there some where. the poem was very beautiful it is a perfect peoem for valentines day - Denise |
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I like it. - Joybaby |
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Very good Poem. It should be #1 Forever - Daymond |
