Torment by Emilith
A weight falls heavily upon me -
A steady pull inside my brain.
In one room I seek love and understanding -
In another I purge the guilt and pain.
My guilt never leaves.
The pain only deepens.
My life is a wild rotation from one room to the other,
Locked in a ceaseless circle of torment -
A game of chess I cannot win.
I stand up, throat on fire, head spinning, heart pounding;
Begging for an end, any end, to this hell.
I gaze into the mirror, wiping my mouth,
Wondering who I have become;
A drawn and pale face, dull, expressionless eyes.
I run my hands through my hair
Hoping it will quiet the screams in my head -
But it doesn't, and tomorrow the game will start again.
A steady pull inside my brain.
In one room I seek love and understanding -
In another I purge the guilt and pain.
My guilt never leaves.
The pain only deepens.
My life is a wild rotation from one room to the other,
Locked in a ceaseless circle of torment -
A game of chess I cannot win.
I stand up, throat on fire, head spinning, heart pounding;
Begging for an end, any end, to this hell.
I gaze into the mirror, wiping my mouth,
Wondering who I have become;
A drawn and pale face, dull, expressionless eyes.
I run my hands through my hair
Hoping it will quiet the screams in my head -
But it doesn't, and tomorrow the game will start again.
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How far will we go to attain society's version of perfection? Is it worth the price?
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i really like this poem. it touched me on a personal note because for almost 3 years, it was my life. i could picture everything, my bathroom, the mirror that i too looked into, but i never saw any difference. and my bathroom still does that to me, but i think that if it didnt, id still be there. id still be the person who i was. thanx for writing this. - Erin |
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this poem is great n i currently suffer from anerexia so i no wat its like to feel all those emotions n i just think its great that some1 can rite it all down n put it out there so people can hear it n no there not alone in it. - nicole |
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awesome poem. i understand how you feel. i`ve been struggling with an eating disorder since 7th grade im now in 10th. it helps to know im not alone. keep up the good work. :) - heather |
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This is a poem that touched me, when I was a teenager I had a friend who struggled with a eating disorder and it just killed me to see her in souch pain. - Marni |
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i had an eating disorder and i have to say that this is a very powerful poem. i wish more people would write on the subject. Thank you for what you have done. - Puthumile |
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wow this was really an amazing poem. even though i don't have an eating disorder, i could really feel your pain as i saw it through your eyes. - G |
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I rate this poem very highly My friend was subject to an eating disorder and she tells me how she feels and this poem helped me to understand a little more of what she was going through - Margaret |
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The misery of an eating disorder is captured here in this poem, a day to day struggle with food "the enemy" - sarah |
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I was very touched by your poem. this has been my life for 23 years. it never ends. - val |
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this is a piece of art. a good use of words. she did a very good job at opening the thoughts of this torment poetically. - sarah |
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Great writing! My daughter has done this since she was 14 years old. She is now 38. I have become resigned to the fact it may never stop. Nothing anyone says or does makes any difference. Thank you for writing about the viscious circle that starts again tomorrow! - Linda |
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THIS IS A REALLY GOOD POEM - Kerry |
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This poem describes exactly how the real thing is. I don't think it could be put into better words. Living with a disorder is a very stressful thing that is hard to recover from. - karina |
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i just wanted to let you know that you are so not alone in all of this. - Pamela |
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Wow. I have a friend who this poem really fits. I always think of her when I read this. Thank you alot. - Rachel |
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i felt your poem i once had a eating disorder but i got help and now i am happy - kelly |
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This poem, ah, it left me speechless. You captured the thoughts in my own head so perfectly, bringing tears to eyes that don't usually cry. Thankyou. - Lora |
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i absoluly love this poem my best freind has a nd eating disorder but is getting help since it was not so far into it she is going to be fine and is almost back to a healthy weight thank you for caring - kylie |
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i cried after i read this. every line of this poem is so real and so true and after reading the other comments. why do we do this to ourselves?? - Leah |
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As one who has battle with bulemia and anorexia for years I understand the pain. I pray everyday that soon my battle will end and the chains will be broken. - chell |
