Void by Michael Anderson
Void, canceled, simply annulled.
Endlessly aching, unconsoled.
Life without you, cause without reason.
Touch without sense, time without season.
I face life now facing a cancerous sore,
A sordid parasite that eats at my core.
All that makes me whole, all I hold deep within,
Leaving me lifeless, or at least not livin'.
A shallow face, anguished and marred.
An empty space, scaled and scarred.
Sweetly abiding to a cynical charade.
Secretly hiding 'hind a fictitious facade.
Still, lost within this heart of glass,
This fragile and yet unfeeling mass.
Lies the remains of a love that glowed,
The gift to you I once bestowed.
But honor and pride now bereaved-
By your love for me so misconceived,
Ripped from my inner depths, impeding-
Mind and body and spirit, bleeding;
Now's crushed to sand from thy ruthless hand,
A cold stare I just can't understand.
I feel that somehow, somehow I'm dying,
At least my soul and all that's underlying.
A simple void, is that what I've become?
The hollowed sphere on a pendulum.
Swinging back and forth, emotion to emotion,
Never once stopping, nor slowing the motion.
No reason, no answer, no justification.
The creation of a sterile imagination.
Just passing through time as time passes me.
Merely a nothing- nothing, merely, left to be.
Sightless and soundless, unseen and unheard.
Mindless and boundless, obscure and absurd.
All empathy lying ungraced, unemployed,
I live my life dying, unembraced, a void.
Endlessly aching, unconsoled.
Life without you, cause without reason.
Touch without sense, time without season.
I face life now facing a cancerous sore,
A sordid parasite that eats at my core.
All that makes me whole, all I hold deep within,
Leaving me lifeless, or at least not livin'.
A shallow face, anguished and marred.
An empty space, scaled and scarred.
Sweetly abiding to a cynical charade.
Secretly hiding 'hind a fictitious facade.
Still, lost within this heart of glass,
This fragile and yet unfeeling mass.
Lies the remains of a love that glowed,
The gift to you I once bestowed.
But honor and pride now bereaved-
By your love for me so misconceived,
Ripped from my inner depths, impeding-
Mind and body and spirit, bleeding;
Now's crushed to sand from thy ruthless hand,
A cold stare I just can't understand.
I feel that somehow, somehow I'm dying,
At least my soul and all that's underlying.
A simple void, is that what I've become?
The hollowed sphere on a pendulum.
Swinging back and forth, emotion to emotion,
Never once stopping, nor slowing the motion.
No reason, no answer, no justification.
The creation of a sterile imagination.
Just passing through time as time passes me.
Merely a nothing- nothing, merely, left to be.
Sightless and soundless, unseen and unheard.
Mindless and boundless, obscure and absurd.
All empathy lying ungraced, unemployed,
I live my life dying, unembraced, a void.
This is a tough poem to write a description for. How can you describe pure emptiness, overwhelming uselessness, nonethingness. there was no special circumstance which led me to write this poem. These are simply feelings I deal with on a daily basis. I know there must be others out there who share similar feelings, therefore I'm willing to share this quite personal piece.
| really 1st class - sushil | |
| Michael, you have told my story. Due to mental illness that I fight every day, I too am void of emotions. Your poem was very thought provoking. I loved it. Keep up the good work. - Colleen | |
| Michael ~ Many of your phrases describing your experience of chronic, deepening helplessness of depression eroding your self from within, of its own volition (helplessness again, leaving a void ~ nothingness, emotionless (apathy from 'learned helplessness'?) left NOT a Void but a resonating 'Reassurance'for one who has experienced the chronic 'dying alive' of one who remains "unconsoled" . "unembraced". The phrases you have created from "helplessness" speak POWERFULLY ~ putting the world on notice that its failure to notice speaks of 'their' failure, not yours, as I 'hear' your 'proclamation' 'I AM' echoing from "the Void". Blessings Always,Cynthia - Cynthia | |
| I could never explain how i really felt with having depression. Reading your poem was the first time that i felt someone understood what i am going through, and i thank you for that! - Theresa | |
| You are a really good writer and this is one of the best poems i have ever read! i loved your choice of words, and the whole time i wanted to read on and on! Keep writing - Freak With A Guitar | |
| WOAH cool poem! It really rocks and its amazing. Touching and meaningful. Rock on! - Ryan | |
| I love it. it is so awsome! - colleen | |
| This poem was beautifully articulated and it touched me deeply. I felt myself holding back the tears because i realise that i'm a void as well and it brought me to tears. i love this poem i printed it and hung it on my wall. great job! ^. ^ - Heather | |
| This poem is the best by far I have ever read on this site! - Jessica | |
| This poem is Great. I could not get past the fist two lines and i started to cry. TY Michael. God Bless you. - Rory | |
| OMG i absolutely love love love this poem it is amazing every single line is so complicated yet simple there is so much there you have an AMAZING TALENT! wow the first time i read it i was dumbfounded and every time i read it i love it even more keep writing i wanna read more of your stuff it's really good muah - Kim | |
| This poem was very sophisticated with the words you used. It was very detailed and it amazed me. Please Keep writing. - Megan | |
| I think this poem is awesome. Honestly it gave me the chills it painted a picture in my head well yeah good job! - livin | |
| this poem was great i think that u should keep up the good work and dont stop writitng u found a away to get your fellings out and i know how it feels 2 loose a loved one but you got to keep your head up and this 2 shalll pass you cant give up u have to keep going dont feel like u cant go on because u can she/he is in a better place and will live forever in your heart--keep your head up - Ciara | |
| ey. dat was a rele gud poem . it made me think bout how hard it must be for ppl who have dem feelin's . n im sry u feel dat way n i hope u get threw ur pain and feel betta . - ilona | |
| wow, absolutely amazing. i was so awed by your talent and just the amazing ability you showed in the way you used the words. as a poem it is absolutely perfect in form. and i wish i couldn't, but i can relate to what you wrote. and i just want you to know that one of the only things i have pride about is my poetry, and i have several published in books. but as far as i am concerned, this poem that you wrote is far better than anything i am capable of. please use your talent. it is a gift. thank you so much for your poem. - Meghan | |
| i love the poem, first off lovely vocab. used in correct context and used to help flow, unlike many people who try to force larger words into there poetry to seem more intelligent, it's clear you simply have a way with words, also the way the poem wraps around to end with reason for the title, a nice touch. on top of all this though i can relate to the poem, so it helps me to love it all the more, cheers to us who live a "depression high" Fallen. - Cody | |
| speechless. purely speechless. this poem. just awsome. undesribable. great job keep it up! - Mariah | |
| I thank you for the poem i feel it is like me alot cept a few things. its really depressing to know i'm not the only one. but keep up the good work. - Matthew | |
| Very well written. You've captured a state of existance alot of people never imagined. But for those who know it all too well, or those who have been left behind as a suicide survivor, it explains what could be going on inside someone's mind that is so hard to put into words. - Kim |
